So, I have been MIA for a few years now. I’ve kept on the backburner. I keep meaning to get back and work on the blog but I just haven’t been feeling like it. Life happened. It’s cool.

I’m back now. Blogging. Because, I need an outlet to let all my shit out into the internet void.

What have I been up to these past few years? I don’t even know where to start. I went to school for a while. I was taking some Chem and lots of Math. But, I had a mental breakdown. I took a quarter off to take care of my mental health. But then COVID-19. And I couldn’t go back to do some classes that required me to do labs. *sigh* And then I had to help the kids with remote learning. It’s been almost 2 years…and I haven’t been back. I might go back once school goes back to in-person. But that’s still tentative.

But, let’s talk about mental health real quick. Since I’ve started blogging in early 2000s, I usually don’t shy away from tough subjects. Mental health wasn’t widely talked about back then. So, let’s talk about it.

I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. It got worse with COVID-19 and being stuck at home. I think school also played a big part with my anxiety. The kids were at school when I was, but I didn’t have enough time for schoolwork. And OMG, Chem. I don’t know what I was thinking. That was always a tough subject for me, even in high school. I think I was also too hard on myself. I pushed myself too hard to the point of breaking. But it got worse. It was a downward spiral from there. I’ve since gotten some help via medication and therapy. I’m not saying this is a cure-all. It’ll take a lot of time, trust, and pixie dust. (just kidding)

But, listen. Don’t try to cope with depression by yourself. Ask for help. Please. Ain’t no shame in that.

What else have I been doing?! I actually started a crafting YouTube. But, editing takes so long. I haven’t uploaded anything in a while. I just didn’t feel like doing much of anything at the time. I was all up in my feels, you know. I was desperately trying to get my shit together. Trying to get out of my funk. I started playing video games again. I wanted to start streaming on Twitch, too. The Hubs bought some nice streaming gear. But he ended up liking it. And so he started streaming using the equipment he got for me. *eyeroll* I also recently got into gardening. I got some indoor plants as well. I’ve been drawing. I’ve been reading. I’ve just been keeping my hands busy. Because it takes my mind off other thoughts. It’s also relaxing. I really should sell my creations online. But, I really don’t like dealing with people. I can’t do customer service.

Another thing that’s helping with my depression is listening to music. I used to sing all the time. Like, anywhere and everywhere. But, I started noticing that I haven’t been singing the past few years and I didn’t really listen to music unless I was in the car. Made me sad. I couldn’t even remember when was the last time I just randomly sang songs or make up songs or sing about what I’m doing. But I noticed MiniHomie does exactly that. She loves to sing. And she sings randomly. And she makes up songs. And it’s time I join her. Because that shit makes me happy. And it’s time to be happy.